New Year, New Whale

Since I last posted, I've been busy, and yet not busy enough. Sabrina went home on the morning of the 30th which was unfortunate since I really enjoyed her visit, Ayla's adorable and Breens' friend Michelle was a really wonderful person. That morning I had to work for 8 hours, though, for the life of me I can't remember what the balls I did afterwards. That kind of bothers me, I should remember such things :S:S:S. Yesterday was the day of running around but it went well. Worked the morning once more, then, since my boss had given me a 15$ gift card for Gap that expired Dec 31st, I figured I'd go check out the sales. 105$ later... well, I did get some great stuff at wonderfully low prices, so yay consumerism. Then, of course I couldn't let a holiday go by without buying new scented oils at the bodyshop so I got 3, though they should smell pretty nice when burned. Finally I completed my gigantesque mission by driving downtown and dropping off my assignment at my Prof's place, so that was a plus. I just hope I had the right address, although I think I did. I should email to confirm that... New year's eve was a bit of a bust, stayed here, got frustrated at my family and this house where the walls are paper and there's a communal obsession with watching loud tv and just doing everything to prevent you from reading in peace. Nonetheless, I finished "Hygiene de L'Assassin" and not only was I creeped out by the ending, but I was somewhat dissapointed. I don't think that arrogance is ever justifiable, especially in Genius. Then again, I'm not one, so I'm sure that probably negates my argument. Still, I don't think that a true Genius should be or can be arrogant. More on this rant some other time. This morning I got the joy of doing Big Inventory at work.... a 15-page inventory that takes about 6 hours to do and includes things such as counting sugar packets, stir stix, etc... etc.... etc.... However I do have a favourable prospect at work which may (fingers crossed) lead somewhere. I'm sure I've written about her before in this journal, but anyways, women who can make your heart melt just by the way they walk or flabbergast you so that you actually have NOTHING to say when looking directly at their eyes.... yeah.... those people rock. I don't know what it is, though I know it's deeper than physicality. Deeper self knowledge? Maybe, but here we get into conjecture so for now i'll leave it. Speaking of Self-Knowledge, after work today i napped for an hour and then went to my Aunt's where I hung out with my dad's side of the family (many cousins my age which = lots of fun conversation). Had a really heated but fun discussion at dinner about the meaningfulness and ethics of sex and sexual encounters, and me and my cousin both came to a pretty good conclusion that seems pretty much applicable in all circumstances. Each person has an ethical responsibility both to themselves and all theri future partners, crushes, etc.... to know themselves at least somewhat well. By this I don't mean perfect self-knowledge, but enough to know what you want a certain act to mean or what that act wlil mean to you and if you feel any sort of discord with what the other person expects to have the self-knowledge which breeds the courage to say so and to determine such a meaning BEFOREhand. It's irresponsible and just wrong of people to get involved with others and just see where things go... sure, at first you don't know, but you should continually with every moment of your life strive to know yourself better so that when you finally find "the one", you actually know what you have to offer and you have something to sacrifice for that person. alas.... the world's not like that though, many people don't enjoy exercising their humanity..... Anyhey I must run off to bed, but I'll elaborate on some of this stuff tomorrow